Friday, February 20, 2004

slowly breathe...

I am feeling a little scattered about today. The external presentation to the world of f2f has been markedly happy this past week, reflecting an increase in joy and happiness- a quiet sort of glowing and deeper reserve to draw from. There were moments of expression in appropriate places, that were allowed out and felt as pure joy- a high that is larger than could have been imagined.

Last night and today isn't in any stark contrast exactly, but it does have its moments of feeling a little like pieces of me flying about in slight disconnect.

There are blog posts sitting in partially written mode, but I don't seem able to complete them. The topics are disparate and reflect a mind that goes in hundreds of directions... perhaps that is the problem- too much all and everything and not enough focus?

It just seems so hard to focus this moment...

Maybe I should get back to the half written post that was going to talk about some of my particular forms of meditation.. only I should practice a little first, instead of just writing.

Sit comfortably. Count breaths slowly.. one... two... .. three... four... .. one... .. two... .. three... .. focus only on the count.. slowly.. no pressure.. no guilt at failing to count.. let that thought float on out- pass by.. seen floating by.. there but not caught, not examined.. and there is another.. see it pass by.. let it go.. ... one... ... two... ...three... ... four... ...

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