A Wednesday

"Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."
Steven Paul (Steve) Jobs;
Commencement address by Steve Jobs at Stanford

There are quite a few thoughtful things in that speech. But I simply wandered into that quote from elsewhere and wasn't really thinking about inspirational things. The quote doesn't have much to do with my day or thoughts. But there are tangents it brings to the surface that I will hopefully pursue later in the evening... or not.

This has been a day; not so much difficult as it was tedious with one difficult person after another. I suspect I attract them on certain days (and after a while those are the only ones I notice so it doesn't matter which came first or if I am right about attracting them). None of them were my clients by the way- all service and care providers and family members. I should check the moon phase. ;-)

Coming home I was listening to the news, then turned on CNN when I got home. Golly gee, more crazies. NEws FOlks- truly I don't care what OJ did or if he will go on trial. Honest. I really really don't, won't ever. And a John McCain audience member's use of the "B" word? And he's raising money with the incident? Give me a break. I don't care. I'll bet Hillary Clinton doesn't care. Seriously, she wants to be president, so name calling better not bother her. I don't care about Marie Osmond's son, though I'm sorry about her father since I remember too well what that feels like. Even so, it doesn't seem like these things should be "the" news. Yet, these were the headlines on news radio and on CNN when I came home. Headlines- Those are supposed to be important stuff, right?

I care some about bomb parts being smuggled past security in the US airports. If that's truly the case and not some over-hyped story (the headline part is all I've heard and I've not fully read the story yet), it probably matters. I care about the US$3.55 per gallon I paid for gasoline yesterday. I care about the number of soldiers who died today and the number who are coming back seriously, severely, forever wounded. I care about the number of Iraqis and Afghanis who died or were injured. I care about the writer's guild strike as it will impact SoCal economy significantly, especially if it lasts very long.

Those seem like things that matter. But the news folks don't distinguish between the important and the not so any more. They seem to scream it all and give it all the same level of concern. I think it is much harder to find the important things that happened in a day. And just perhaps, the things I think are important this moment to know, aren't really either.

Yup. Pretty much almost talked myself out of another post. That's an example of the vague meandering focus I have when I get home at night. Occasionally I work myself up about something and in the end realize, nope, it doesn't really matter either.

After basic needs, love, kindness, relationships, and that tiny wispy daily poke at making a difference somewhere, I'm not sure much else matters.

Hmmmm...

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